Wassup Uniquifiers and welcome back to my blog! ♥
So, it’s been a while, hasn’t it? For those of you who still remember me, yes, I am indeed alive.
The other day, I was thinking about my blog and how I’d have to check it out again soon, since I had pretty much abandoned it and forgotten it existed, of course. That’s what led me to come online just now, at almost midnight, and to finally log on. What a coincidence that it’s actually also my 3 year blogiversary today! I know I’ve been an awful blogger and taken a million hiatuses and yes, even though I had more than enough time during lockdown, everything just felt… off, if that makes sense?
I’ve missed this community a lot. I’ve missed the friends I made and how it felt to get my thoughts down and read through the lovely comments people would leave. I’m gonna be honest with you guys though – although my blog is mostly about being unique and accepting and loving yourself, I’ve been doing the complete opposite.
I know, I know, I’m a hypocrite. I guess life just got me down and I started hating on myself really, really fiercely. Then my classes started and I’ve been busy in going to attend them (yes, physically rather than online) and I was too mentally exhausted and drained to even think about blogging.
Isn’t it weird how the things you love doing the most quickly become the things you stay away from? I guess this year has just had such a mind-blowingly large impact on me as a person and my mental and physical health – sometimes I just wouldn’t even be able to eat, because I constantly had this sick feeling at the bottom of my stomach.
I spent most of lockdown and summer finishing up with online classes and then lounging around on the couch in my sweatpants and bedhead whilst watching Netflix. Unhealthy? Yes. Avoidable? No. Althoughhh I did work out, so I guess that’s a plus?
Anyway, as I’m starting to settle down a bit more with classes and the lockdown (sort of) lifting, I decided that I want to come back and be a part of the blogosphere again.
2020 has been an insane year, and a LOT has happened. From corona, to the war talks in January, to the forest fires, to the BLM protests, to basically everything. As time goes by, I notice more and more discrimination and prejudice in the world than I originally thought there was. I notice more injustice and more wrong than I did before, and I really think that now is the time to speak up.
I’ve been getting really sad and frustrated and basically just worked up about these matters overall lately, and one of the things I hate most is to sit silent whilst these things are happening in the world around me. This is the world we’re gonna grow up in, as the new generation. This is the world our children are gonna grow up in. Is this really how we want it to be for them? Do we really want our children to wake up every day to the news that so-and-so was shot for being black or that a country was bombed and taken over by another?
I realised I had a platform to use. I had a space where I could let out all my thoughts, however unimportant they may be, and maybe even affect someone with my words, even just a little. I know I can’t make world peace or end all discrimination or anything, but it gives me comfort to know that I’m doing something, at least. I’m speaking up against the wrongs in the world and who knows? Maybe one day, I’ll get somewhere with that.
For now, what makes me the happiest is when my words positively impact or affect someone’s life, whether it’s small or big. That’s why I’m hoping to either turn this blog around and make some posts on more serious topics or to make a new blog just for those issues. However, I’m not sure on what I’m gonna do just yet so at the moment I’ll keep thinking about it and I’ll be open to suggestions, too! (Plus the fact that thinking of a new blog name would be a p a i n.)
Anyways, that’s all for today’s post, y’all. I just wanted to update you guys on everything and give my my not-so-valid excuse for my inactivity. Oh, and to let you know I’m still alive, obviously. I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe during these super hard times!
Here’s a reminder to keep washing and sanitising your hands, to wear a mask and to stay as careful as possible. Of course, make sure you’re all eating properly, drinking plenty of water and resting properly too! Please take care of yourselves for me and I’ll see you in the next post!
PS: If anyone’s actually reading this, thank you for joining me back in my little corner of the internet again – it means a lot.